话

一句加油
带来了多少希望

一句你能
带来了多少动力


一句别怕
带来了多少勇气


一句放心
带来了多少安心

不·知·道

我不知道

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我

不

知

道

负负 != 正

最近
负面能量好像很强

有很多事情
我想了又想
该想的也想
不该想的也想

想
想
想

我喜欢想
不喜欢讲

别人总喜欢问我：
你为什么静静的在那里？很 emo~

我很想说：
我和里面的我正在沟通
但是我说：
没有啦~

我很幸运

有很多关心我的朋友
他们很常都会跟我说
有心事就说出来分享
不要一个人闷闷不乐

我不是没有想过
把心事告诉他们

但是又有几个
朋友
我能够看着他们的眼睛
完全不用经过大脑过滤
把这些统统说出来

不是我不相信他们
也不是他们不够好
更不是他们没资格

我只是
还没找到适合的人选
而已

不·知·道

是开始
是结束

是前点
是终点

是过程
是结果

我不知道
我不清楚
我不明白

也许
那感觉是真的
那想法是对的

也许
那只是我自己
相信那是真的
那是对的而已

你

怎么会是你？
却不是你

怎么又是你？
却又不是你

怎么还是你？
却还不是你

崩溃（后记）

没有经历过
就别说你快崩溃了

要知道？
当你连续听着同样的闹钟响超过半个小时
从睡着到睡醒
从睡醒到睡不着
从睡不着到发狂的整间屋子跑
而你的邻居像没事发生一样继续他的‘日常生活’

我操
你妈快被我操了
你十八代祖宗也快被我操了

崩溃（前记）

前兆
这绝对是前兆

我疯了
我要疯了
我快要疯了

好笑的是
老妈子很担心我
是不是念书念到神经去

当我跟她说我一直听到闹钟声
响个不停的时候
我看的出
妈
你的脸色
不是很好

放下了手中
炒菜的锅铲
跟我寻找那‘魔音’的根源

找到了
是我的邻居 =.=
她才放心回去
继续‘发明’今晚的晚餐

而我
也快到极限了
说话的速度
像遥控器按了
fast forward 一样
吃饭前
吃饭时
吃饭后

简直
就是
神经

>:(

我没有生气
我没有失望
我也不想给你 o0o
或是 mlm
或是 t(-.-t)

我只想当着你的面
给你个 (=.=) 的脸

也不说那么多了
毕竟
我没有立场
我没有权力
我没有必要

没什么的什么

最近
学了 vincent 的方式
一直的，不停的，重复着听同一首歌 （就连现在也是）

开始
的时候
我还以为 应该
一下子
就会厌倦了

但是
没想到
我居然爱上了这个方式

李佳薇 —— 大火

作词：姚若龙
作曲 ：马奕强
制作人：马奕强


有座巨大的停了的时钟 倾倒在赶路的途中 挡我 向前走
有只黑色的老鹰在俯冲 叼走了你送的承诺 回头 冷冷看我
有阵将眼泪扫落的狂风 掀起了隐藏的疼痛 把我 变赤裸
我为蔓延的回忆除草了 心中却长出盛开的 寂寞 原来是梦
有些伤痕像场大火 把心烧焦难以复活
不碰了好像忘了 恐惧却在脑海住着
重复卡在一个 重要的时刻 不知觉就会退缩
连幸福都克制着 觉得什么都会变的
防备着平静到最后 连爱也透着冷漠（独自寂寞）


有人说我的微笑是暖的 心里却很难被感动 狠狠 解剖我
从不是有意想害谁难过 甚至会沮丧一直没突破 沉重的壳
有些伤痕像场大火 把心烧焦难以复活
可是我 想要望了 恐惧如何把我上锁
期待阳光炽热 爱来客的时刻 能用力去拥抱着
多幸福就多快乐 不让未知成为负荷
投入的留下了每一刻 不怕的人 最富有
人太脆弱 会不停错过
太多宝贵的 都需要跋涉 才可以获得
太多璀璨的 越隔着夜色 越光芒四射




听了一次又一次
听了重复又重复


一个字一个字的
去咀嚼
去消化
去感受
去明白

uk-uk

少了你

的陪伴

一开始

还真的

不习惯

直到

现在

还是

忘，不了

不过

你

还是

跟着她

比较好

只希望

我以前

向你

传达

对她

的思念

或是

分享

的心事

你不会

背叛我

去告诉

她

吧？

哦耶耶耶耶我终于买到了！！ xD

真的是好~~~~~~~~~~~~~久啊

买到的时候
哦超爽的  ^o^

连家也不回了
直接冲去学校
解开封印！！ :D

开也开了
封印也解了
照片也放了
可是就是舍不得回呀哈哈哈

听她的歌不能停！！！ xD

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可是可是

怎么好像有裂痕？！

nonononononononononono!!!!!! T.T

不~~~~~~~~~












哎呀呀
果然是乐极生悲了啦 :(


哎
果然我还是要有那么一点emo的感觉比较好啦

the night

it was a long night.

it had been a while.
since i last talk to my mum like this.

it was long, it was comfortable (a bit serious actually).

thoughts, drowned me.

i had never imagine, or try to think how much you had given us.
i had never known, or try to think how much you loved us.

you asked for nothing in return.

and deep inside
i know
i have to do give in all of me
to thank for all you have given me

i love you mum.
<3 <3 <3

i know you will never see, or know this post
but still
i wanted to say
thank you
and i love you

sign

its a sign.

i may have fallen for another.

but never i never thought that,  this situation could happen to you too.

i know it was the end of us long time ago.

but, it just doesn't feel right (not left too).

cause i know, deep in my heart, i wish we could start all over.

emo

1st time i REALLY dont know how to do a test.

almost completely blank @@

[IIIIIIIIIII]
emo bar 100% :(

you did not change my world

you just turned it upside down

birthday

it was quite a birthday though.

spent the last few hours reading 九把刀's book. (recently getting addicted to it although i know its a bit late LOL)

12 midnight.

sang myself a birthday song, say goodbye to age 19, say hello to age 20, went to bed.

didn't set the alarm, cause i want to wake up naturally on my birthday (who ask i'm boss of the day)

went to school, keep liking post and commenting for those who wished me happy birthday (really busy with that)

went to station 1 for lunch with kia su group, quite fun :D

we almost had beer though (in the middle of the day hahaha) but canceled the thought since jessie is having class in a while.

oh i just keep on liking and thanking on facebook for the rest of the afternoon LOL

had dinner with family, then after that was where the fun really began.

me alvin duckie rocky went to tarot to have a drink (not really 'a' drink though) and chit chat.

using the WoW book we ordered 6 drinks. 6!! really huge one (u can see it through facebook)

damn those drinks made me had some hard time getting to sleep.

it was quite a happy birthday, though not as crazy as i used to.

the only disappointment was that YOU didn't say happy birthday to me. the only person i really want to hear my birthday wishes from was YOU. but YOU didn't.
i was actually hoping YOU would give me a pop-up chat, or write on my wall, or anything, really.
haiz. guess we don't always get what we wished for.

一个人

我喜欢自己一个人，一个人的时候可以做很多东西

我喜欢自己一个人，一个人的时候可以想很多东西

我喜欢自己一个人，一个人的时候可以充分享受孤独的感觉

我喜欢自己一个人 ，我不是emo



一个人，看戏的感觉很不一样
一个人，听歌的感觉很不一样
一个人，思考的方向很不一样



一个人，看戏看到感动的画面，我的脸上的液体可以人它流
很多人，看戏看到感动的画面，我面无表情的硬撑装男子汉


一个人，可以发呆发到什么都忘记，什么都不知道
很多人，发呆最多只可以发三秒钟，就会被叫回来



一个人，我的灵，我的魂，可以任它飘，任它游
很多人，我的灵，我的魂，只能专注眼前的一切


我喜欢一个人，也喜欢很多人

我不讨厌一个人，也不讨厌很多人

started

it started.

a dream, a message, a picture.

never had, never imagined.

happy. thrilled. a bit satisfied.

她

有没有那么一个她，能在我寂寞的时候陪着我；

有没有那么一个她，能在我伤心的时候陪着我；

有没有那么一个她，能在我开心的时候陪着我；

有没有那么一个她，能在我随时想要出的时候陪着我；

有没有那么一个她，能在我过夜猫子生活的时候陪着我；

有没有那么一个她，能让我不寂寞；

有没有那么一个她，比我还更会玩；

有没有那么一个她，玩得比我还疯；

有没有那么一个她，笑得比我傻；

有没有那么一个她，会天真的被我耍得团团转；

其实，可能永远不会有这么一个她。

其实，可能这个她只出现在童话故事里。

其实，可能她就在我身边而我却不知道。

其实，可能这个她永远都不会被我遇到。

其实，可能根本就没有这个其实。

有那么多其实，我还是很希望我继续那么天真，那么傻的等下去。

很多人说，自己没有采取行动，怎么可能会得到。

但是，现实中是不可能会有那只出现在戏剧里的男女主角浪漫相遇的情节。

一见钟情这种我也不是很相信。

我所相信的爱情，是必须经过朋友这个阶段的。


可能你是对的，我是错的。

可能我是对的，你是错的。

每个人都不一样。

presentation day

its presentation day woots!!

guess what's my role for the presentation?

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simple, a nice and stupid looking vase LOL  :D






thanks for the show :P



oh just one more thing to say: imma going to Kuching fest tonight woots, one simple wish, many leng lui to see!! xD

the next step

who is going to take the next step?

me, her, or perhaps, God?

the next step, is it talking about the next step forward, or the next step backwards?

i could not think, i could not decide, and i could not take action.

the new start

ah, its been a month huh?

glad this blog is not yet abandoned, ignored, and thrown into the far end of my mind.

not really some new start,  the new start is starting (what am i saying?) , the new sem is starting, and i better get myself together, for i don't want to continue disappointing someone who love me, and myself too.

cheers.

holiday

Oh i haven't been in a mood like this in a long time.

Totally 100% otaku mode on. :D

Wake up -> Brunch -> sit in front laptop gaming + movie -> Dinner -> sit in front laptop gaming + movie -> Sleep

hahahahahaha!!!

There was no need to think so much, no need to miss so much, no need to care so much.

Just being myself, doing whatever i like.

Started watching 'Fairy Tail' though, really nice and funny and touching anime, made me cried so many times!! It was hard to try and hold my tears in you know!! @.@

Well, that's about it. Now i'm just sitting there rotting everyday, waiting + countdown-ing my friends to finish their test and come back to kch.

放假

不知不觉，已经放假了。

放假无聊，不知做什么。

没人找，没人陪。

原本；原来

原本以为，时间可以改变一切；原来，并不是。

原本以为，时间可以治疗一切；原来，并不是。

原本以为，我再也不会这样了；原来，很难。

原本以为，我可以继续走下去；原来，很难。



原本以为，我不会失去你；原来，那是个梦，是个真的很美的梦。

我真的不想失去你。

真的。

thoughts

what am, i thinking?

i hate to say it, at a time like this, i just LOVE to slack!!!!

didn't i promise myself to study hard for this semester?

didn't i promise myself to get good results for this semester?


i've been trying to destroy my body recently, eating what i CAN'T with all i can.

junk food, fried, roasted, no plain water, anything to get me sick. what am i doing?!

blow my head up.

my head

i whip my hair back and forth, i whip my hair back and forth, i whip my hair back and forth.

i crack my head in and out, i crack my head in and out, i crack my head in and out.

the night

That was something that hadn't happened in a long time.

Yeah, the long nights we had. it was like old times, well, not back in the 80s ( i wasn't born yet). All the fun nights we had when we graduated from CHMS1. :)

Yeah, Miko and Wei Yu came back form SG, and Lik Tze was about to go back to KL (which was a sad case btw). :(

To celebrate, or to farewell, there was not any other place, jase tea room we went. :)

The same place we went again, again, and again. But I never stopped loving that place, cause i have no reason to.

The place has everything needed, perfect place for gathering.

Nice decorations, not too bright (not too dark too), nice-and-slow-and-comfortable music, and the drinks, oh yeah. Can't describe the delicious-ness. 

Well, i wanted to stay up late tonight, so i ordered something nice, and THICK :D

Ice blended mocha!! xD

Oh we all excited talking here and there, and we didn't realized that it was almost 12 am already :O

Simple conclusion, 'sua tio'. :)

Btw me and melvin had this little adventure, which we send Wei Yu back to her place, and to find our way back. :D

I watched it, i told myself not to, but i watched it.

Nice TV series i gotta say, not too violent, not too fairy-taled.

I watched it........................................  till 4 in the morning (i finished the whole series btw)

GOD,  the power of IB Mocha, bless me with your powers :D

You

it was only a nap, one short, simple, tiring nap.

i dreamed about you again.

was on my headphone listening to 2NE1's songs, well somehow their beautiful voice touches me, touches my soul.

and you just came into my dream, like a soundless ninja in a dark stormy night, what relieved me was, this time nothing happened.

i promised myself to forget about you, i promised myself to let go of you, i promised to live on without you. (well that seemed to be quite impossible)

guess i'm still not strong enough.

may the power of songs heal me.

movie night :)

oh we went for a movie last night, venue?
oh of course its MBO@spring la :)

there was me, lik tze, jason, stella, melvin and his gf.

funny thing was, everyone was like wearing couple shirts :O
me & lik tze ->  red shirt and jeans (sounds gay i know)
jason & stella -> black shirt and jeans
melvin & his gf -> white shirt

yeah it was wierd =.=


oh i haven't said anything about the movie?

it was Thor, in 3D (hell yeah!!!)

the movie was not bad, the storyline was nice, but what really disappoint me was the 3D effect :(

RM18 nooooo~~~~ a bit wasted for the 'a bit crappy' 3D effect.

















but i gotta say, the female main actor,
 she's hot :D

and she seemed to gave a lot movies recently, guess she that talented and worth it :)

can't wait for her next movie  XD















well, talked about something else last night, felt quite relieved, thanks stella :)

Parking day

the webpage that i've been keep refreshing this morning.

the page after the long clicking. a bit disappointed though. :O







well to conclude the swinburne parking system had 'improved' to online purchase, and of course, still on first-come-first-serve basis.

想

我知道，我又想你了。   我知道，已经不可能了。


我听歌，想起你。

我驾车，想起你。

躺上床，想起你。

我发呆，想起你。

我emo，想起你。











手，少了你牵着的温暖；　手机，少了你关心的温暖。



习惯了，没什么了。



只是偶尔的想起，想起的偶尔。

VHDL lab

We started our VHDL project today, it was some hard shit which we never heard about.

Basically we only did one thing this afternoon: Follow EVERY single thing what the PDF told us. =.=

Well yeah, we did manage to finish the S.T.E.P.S we were told to, and the programming was right, but the board was NOT working :O

Haiz, hope its not our fault, and it BETTER be the board's fault :D

Our friend Alvin here is trying his best to connect the circuits :D

The completed circuit :)

The view from my lab was not bad

p.s i'm the middle of 'catching snake' :D

















Well, some afternoon i had. And i have to do all this while my stomach grinding LOL. Sorry for the low quality pics :)

HI

well this is my 1st time blogging, dont really know what it feels like.

p.s i created this while we are preparing for my lab later :P